am tired.

am tired.
both my body and soul
shouldn't feel like that
but sadly it is the fact
everyday when i step into the office
i wouldn't know what am i gonna to do for that day
everyday like got special 'surprise'
don't like the feeling
don't like to rush everything at the last minute
things aren't be perfect when u rush for it
=(

thinking to get some part time job on sat n sun
hope to earn as much as i could when i'm still young
i hope to have my own business in the future
gotta save some model first
planning planning =)
my mom ask me to do public mutual agent
shall i just give it a try??
but i don't hope tat my fren will avoid to answer my call anymore..lol

i'm looking forward to get my name card ^^!!

3 years anniversary

yesterday was our 3 years anniversary <3
never ever think that we can walk till this long
i still love u care u more and more everyday
i know u are the same to me =)
im must say that I am lucky to have you ^^*

当我们一起戴上四方帽

now we talk about my convo..!!!!=)
can't stop smiling everytime when i think about it haha
my mom was su funny
when we reach at wisma there
my mom saw everybody are holding flowers
she said"why evryone holding flowers..ai ling..y u din buy flowers...?"
huh?XDXDXDXD
hahaha..
but at last she bought me a bouquet of flower also =)
hmm..
ntg much to mention about the ceremony.
it was very bored..
the most excited part is the photo taking session after the ceremony..
wah wah wah...
dear's mummy bought a bouquet of flower for me also
so surprising
then bluespark called me
another shocking surprise
then my dearly qing and burger came with FLOWERS also!!!=)
my hand was tired because of holding three big bouquet of flowerss
my mouth was tires because of non stop smiling
i just cant stop smiling..XDXD lol
keep photo-ing...NON-STOP!!!XD
and it was really hot with three layers of clothes inside..T.T

after that we went for dinner at saisaki japanese buffet
i ate very little only tat night
so sayang..hump...=/
and everyone of us seems exhausted dy during dinner time
haha..
convo is really a tiring activity..XD

wonderful day...=)
but a little bit 遗憾
the situation there is really 混乱
i miss out the chance to took picture with many frenss..><

古城之旅

last saturday we went to melaka
finally the trip was on
it had been delayed for more than 2 months dy..lol
we went for the very symbolic churh to took picture
I was actually very interested to have a trishaw ride
im so excited to see those trishaw
then i automatically took out my camera wanted to take a snap on one of the trishaw
then the 'driver' of the trishaw
pointing at me...!!!and scold me stupid...!!!!
walaoehhh....wad a GOOD service attitude...
how could they behave like this to the tourist...
local tourist also tourist marrr...><
after tat we went to have hainan chicken rice ball
queue-ing for about 20 mins
hmm..just okok lo...
i prefer yim guk kai more..XD
next we took a river cruise...
suckss maxx~~
ntg to see at all...
10 bucks..wasted...
and at the time we are on the boat
we got a saman for illegal parking...
really very suehhhh T.T
next, we head to taman buaya
rm8..actually it was really not worth for it..
those buaya there are all like stone..==
just sleeping and stoning there...
no movement..no action at all..
but like i said
we always can be syioksendirinesss..lol
we try everything to bully those buaya..lol
we throw stone on them
we kicked the door of their kolam
we splash water on them...XDXD
but at least we saw some real action..
cool..really fun..^^
night we had our dinner at kapitol satay celup..
err..we queue up for more than 1 hour...
but everyone of us dun really enjoy the meal..
and it is really expensive..not worth..
the last stop is at jonker street..
it was really very crowded and riuh-rendah..lol
but ntg to buy there..so disappointed..><
overall i enjoyed the trip
i enjoyed the single moment that i spent with my lovely frenss =)

像是刺猬般防范

今天有个同事和我聊起天
他说我的防范心很强
我的面前总是有一座很高很稳的城堡
没有办法让人靠近
他说我爱装很坚强
其实自己内心脆弱得很
我自己却不知道
他说我不容易相信人
每当别人要靠近我时
或者说我什么时
我会先反驳先自卫
我会像刺猬一样簌起我的刺
不让人靠近
我听到这番话时
我其实是有点震惊
我从没想过我会给人这样的感觉
更没想过我会是这一类的人
我觉得这番话很有趣
打翻了以往我听见别人对我的看法
我喜欢听别人如何剖析我这个人
或许这样我会更了解我自己多一点
每个人都以为很了解自己
往往却会忽略掉很多自己不曾发现的自己

浮生乱世

我已经上班超过一个星期啦
我其实进了一间很乱水的公司
真的是乱倒我觉得不可思议
我进的这段时间刚好是公司的动荡时期
上层不满下层下层不满上层
我们这些新来的就夹在中间
其实我真的要得很简单
并不想加入这些纠纷
只希望做好本分学到东西得到应该得到的回报就好了
其实出来社会工作就是讲态度这两个字
不管是上层也好下层也好
都有自己应该有的态度
详细情形很懒惰多说
我才工作了一个星期
我就过了试用期
而且还升职了
我现在是策划统筹
有些人会讲是公司的手段要快快留住我们
可是换一个角度想
其实我们自己也有好处的不是
早一点过试用期
工钱就拿多一点
职位高一点
以后就可以建立自己的profile
他们或许有他们的心机
可是同样的我们也没有吃亏不是吗
如果公司真的想他们难说得那样
这样到我真的撑不住时
我还是会离开的
就当给自己一个机会学习咯
事情是要看双面的
吃的咸鱼抵得渴
就算是吃了点亏
就当作是经一事长一智

从不喜欢孤单一个

为什么我那么丑怪的 :(
我们昨晚度过了一个很愉快很开心的晚上
我们先去吃晚餐 在taipei walker
这一餐我们讲话多过吃饭
好像几十百年没有讲过话酱
总是有说不完的话题
分享不完的心事似的
nice talk :)
我觉得当大家开始离开校园生活
各自步入社会的同时
这样难得相处谈心的机会变得很少
我会特别珍惜的 <3
总之说了很多聊了很多
感觉真好



接着去的那一场演唱会
我们都很兴奋
因为我们拿的是rogal gold的票
很前很前 舞台就在我们的前面
每一次当他们望着我们这个方向
我一直觉得他们是看到我们的
而且我手上有荧光棒
是这一区仅仅少有的其中一只荧光棒
我一直跟仪说他在看我 XD



其实整场演唱会
我根本不知道我会的歌曲有没有超过10首
我会的就大概只有
男人不该让女人流泪
你爱我想谁
七友
...
可是实力派就是实力派
他们个个都很会唱针的
我个人特别喜欢许志安的表演
他的舞蹈秀算很精彩的
而且状态体型全部还很fit
而且我觉得他很疯
<3
一开始我以为我会很闷的
一直提不起劲去high
谁知道其实我还蛮enjoy的说
XD
全场唯一的不足是
我憋了整场的尿
我从开场憋到回家
T.T
因为我们坐的位子是最里面的一排
很困难走出去
只好忍住咯
>.<

休息了两天
明天又继续上班啦
老实说
我还没习惯这样的生活
:(

take a breath

this is my seat in my office*
my seat is just next to the boss's room
im not dare to on facebook or msn now
haha..><
today was my first day in work
basically i did ntg much today
just some script writing
deal with the host and helping in VO part
then my boss told me about what shuld i do
there are many small small details things to remember and do
frankly speaking
i am still very blur about the system here
not familiar with their programme
but just try my best to catch up as much as possible

today agnes and cwai supposingly is come for interview
at last they leave the office same time with me
haha..i will have another two more new colleagues hehe
i am happy to see them here tho :)

just now went pasar mlm with them
kang, cwai, yee, agnes
we ate at steven corner
we witness an incident
it was so happening
a fight/quarrel happened
an uncle was beaten on his face
half of his face was swelling and nose bleeding
two young man i guess are his sons were shouting and pushing off the table and chairs in steven corner
we are not sure whether the quarrel related with steven corner
but it was quite scary because the two man was like lost control at first
act very aggressive
it looks like he will enter the shop and start a hard fight anytime
after a while the police came
they are still arguing
but at last we still dunno wad happened
young ppl
why are they so 冲动
><

hump really tired dy..><
it was only just 10:30pm now
ishhhh
i need a rest dy :(

actually im not in a good mood*

天灰灰 累不累

this picture were took last year loo's birthday celebration in Fullhouse.
cute right? they were holding each other :) sweet <3

today i really did smtg that i have thinking for such a long time
i guess not much ppl did it before
i sing alone in redbox for almost three hours today
i won't say it was truly fun
but it was really an interesting experience
the customer after was also singing alone
haha so i feel more comfortable while register in the counter
sang more than 50 songs i guess..
at least 40 la..:P
i just keep dedicate the song that i want
when i want to stop just stop it
when i want to repeat just repeat
but it was tiring tho
non stop singing..wow...
at least try once in your life..:)

其实现在的心情很沉重 真的
不知道哪里来的重量
一直压着我的心
压迫感很重
明天要上班了
我一直觉得我爸爸妈妈都好像不是很喜欢我的工作
我妈妈还在问我要不要再去拿另一个科目的学位
你知道吗
因为要做的比别人都好
要做出成绩给他们看
所以我比别人都来得压力
我要证明我的选择是对的
我要相信我走的路一定也有很好的未来的
只是，这个起点我走得很辛苦。

蜜月去啦

其实摄影真的很好玩，不管是当摄影者或者被摄影者都有不同的乐趣。
照片会说故事，真的。
等吧，等我开始储蓄足够钱后，我会买相机的。
我喜欢人物摄影比较多。
我觉得很特别的，照片会让你对某一个人有不一样的看法 :)

明天要开始上班啦
honeymoon结束啦
早上不能睡到自然醒
不能赖床啦 :)
我其实不知不觉honeymoon了40天了
哇哇哇~
我其实很害怕我明天开始会不能适应要工作一整天的生活
我习惯了每天要睡午觉
习惯了早上接近11点才起身的
习惯了没事做就懒懒的躺在沙发上看电视
习惯了糜烂的生活
希望我的工作是很繁忙
很有挑战性的啦
忙碌才能替我填补对颓废的依赖。
我开始在想
我每天上班要穿什么衣服好呢
想这种的 哈哈
我会觉得穿着自己喜欢的衣服
心情也会好一点
工作也会有劲一点

对了
昨天去一个演员试镜
其实很懒惰去了的
都是一个auntie很努力很积极的大电话给我
那就应酬应酬咯
到那边
上着楼梯时
竟然有人叫我的名字
我猛回头一看
竟然看见susan
世界好小哦
原来是他工作的公司来的
遇到朋友真的开心的说
然后呢
这次我的试镜的角色
竟然又是要发娇的
上次是妓女的角色
这次是一个勾引男人的“小妖精”
然后我要跟cwai对戏
救命 我没有办法看着他要发娇
一直很想笑场
可是整个过程很好玩啦真的
有为我原本郁闷的心情变得阔朗一点*

现在要出去了
回来再说*

因梦想而伟大

我不再需要量地了
其实老板今天和我握手的那一刻
我不知道我是开心还是什么心情
很奇怪的人 都是这样的
没有的时候会很烦很想要
机会在面前时又会诸多忧虑

我眼前的那家公司
规模不算大
也没有大制作之类的
是一家新的网络中文媒体
其实我是听到他说他要我做Voice over
所以我才被这份共吸引了
除了要录音
也要改稿写稿
还有负责监督所有的制作都要在date line之前完成
老实说工作性质真的很适合很吸引我
而且工作时间我也很满意 哈哈
我不知道 很想快快去掉脑力海里那一股不知哪来的顾虑
去去去去!!!

我承认
我不是没有工作
只是我在挑
总觉得似乎有更好的机会在前头
塞翁失马 焉知非福
这句话用在这样的状况不知道适合吗
简单来说
就不想到时候如果遇到更好的际遇会让自己后悔
不知道这样的想法是错的吗

我有，我的脑袋里有一大堆的梦想
我不要当个无名人士打一辈子的工
我要爬更高
我要由我自己的事业
我不需要当某某大集团的老板
也不需要当月入万元的有钱人
至少我在和别人介绍我自己时
我可以很大声地说
某某某东西就是我的杰作 :)
我妈妈可以很光荣的和他的朋友说
你看这就是我女儿做的 :)
之类的
所以我要加油 我知道的

最近宝贝越来越迟回家了
我很多时候等他的电话都是在睡梦中进行的
他的公司我只能说 不忍不义
哈哈 人工给那么少 却要手下做的要生要死
可是我相信宝贝有正确的工作态度
有很强的上进心
他一定会成功滴!!^^*
而且我的宝贝不差的嘛~^^