如果真有天使就好了

昨天去了一个assignment
是去帮一个婆婆打扫他的家
去之前我的同事有先跟我说
他的家不会很脏
可是就会有尿骚味
我一直不以为意
心里想 大不了应该就是常尿床
所以有尿骚味吧
他是一位脚关节行动缓慢的老婆婆
有一个智障的孙女住在一起
他是住在一个组屋里在一楼
我们昨天就把车停在他屋子的正下面
才刚走到楼梯口
就已经闻到比我想象中还要重的尿骚味了
我有惊了一下
上到去之后
我没有办法接受那重到不行
我在门外呆了一下
告诉自己一定要克服
过后我才发现
根本就不是我想象普通的尿床而已
而是孙女直接税在客厅的床上
直接大小号都在那里
床底下都是积了不懂积了多久的排泄物
已经生虫了

在部落格写这件事
不是因为我嫌弃我的工作
又或是嫌弃婆婆他们
而是我有震惊到
我们这些生活在幸福健康的家庭里
我没有想过就在我们周围
有很多这样的小人物
其实在一些恶劣到不行的环境中生活着
每天和自己的排泄物混为一起
作为婆婆的自己行动已经不便了
看着自己的孙女这个样子
他该如何是好
每当一说起死去的儿子
婆婆的眼泪不自觉又会流了下来
很多我们所不屑的“幸福”
对于他们来说是多么奢侈的

世界上就是有那么多不公平的事情


><

白色圣诞

yeahoooo :D
party again ^^*

we had an pyjamas animal christmas party at jie bai's house
we reached her house around 9pm dy
due to the heavy traffic jam -__________-"
loo n qing prepare all the dishes for us :)
got drumstick, lamb, beef, mashed potato, macaroni(bu hui spell XD), brocoli, crepe..etc
haha..yum yum...
feel weird..
always can't eat usual portion of food during party
food always being wasted
><
all of us wear pyjamas
it killed me omg-_____-
i din wear pyjamas at all de
haiz.../.\
then we play games
天才冲冲冲 XD
next time we should play 粘土 :D
exhcange present is always the most excited session!! :)
haha. i got a book 绘本 ^^*
i think everyone is satisfy with their present <3
end the party ard 12am
enjoyed the time we spend together -^^-
love u alll <3

went a photoshooting with dear on christmas day
all the way we headed to putrajaya and sepang gold coast
haha...be a model is damn hard u know!!
我放不开!! XD
dunno how to pose @.@
how those model do that..
堵嘴，抿嘴，单眼，扭腰，挺胸...XDXD
hard max for me..haha...
我不能做作!! :)
btw it is fun...
can't wait to see those photo..
haha..first time dun expect so high la..

purposely go visit ma hui xin today..
haha..spent my whole evening there...:)
somestime i envy her life..
selling clothes is fun for me haha...:D
no stress haha ^^"

B.E.A.C.H

went sepang gold coast today
nothing so special about the beach
just an ordinary one..
they are always over rated it....
anyhow, i still enjoy the day
always love the sea..love the nature atmosphere ^^
we played layang-layang!!
haha..fun!!really fun :D
儿时的玩意儿 真好!!
那一霎那我都忘记自己已经是踏出社会人士的上班族了 :D


tmr back to work again
hump/.\
monday bluezzz...

lazy to blog dy
nitez zzz :D

现实吞没了天真

The Man is no longer around KL.
He is on the way flying to the big earth.
feel that Im so stupid.
start to miss him now.
sigh.


i did a big decision today
It is consider big for me.
signed up for an insurance + saving plans
din do any research at all
trust enen.
i believed that she will help me to get the best plan
i asked my dad opinion
but he said i decide myself
wohhh
i feel that im not kids anymore
i am an adult
which need to be responsible and handle things myself
:)

went to e-curve with loo n jie bai!!*
wink*
long time din meet that especially jie bai~*
we purposely went there to visit little horse
the couple now are full time doing clothes business now
haha~*
we were starving severely as we were trapped in the carpark
we spent more than half an hour to get a parking lot
sweat/.\ this was the second time for me in this single week
terrible KL.
had "lunch" in Ikea restaurant
extremely hungry and ended up over-full stomach =.=
we talked about christmas party
yessss!!party!! :D

那天和同事在车上聊天时
我说如果我的男朋友拿着钻戒和自己亲手弄的戒指和我求婚
我会觉得他用自己弄的戒指求婚的话我会开心点
他们听了我的言论后
直接以一副不置可否的预期和我说
我还小 还活在浪漫的童话故事里
以为什么草戒指咩 酱哦
然后我说我宁可他把钱花在拍一个很美很美的婚纱照/录影
他们说这些都不实际
我听了后觉得有很大的挫败感
是我太天真了 （opps..天真渊...XDXD!!)p.s改动的人就会懂的啦 :D
还是大人们都被现实给吞没了
他们说我过多几年就不会这样想了
是吗?

TGI Friday

I love this pic so much!!!!

当自己还在以为自己很青春的当儿
青春已经不自觉得在指缝间溜走了
/.\

今天是星期五
公司感觉上特别冷清
我的组一半的人请假了
冷清的氛围更重
可是我和普通的上班族一样
每个星期都是期待着这天的到来
难得可以放肆的深呼吸感觉真好

其实最近脑袋里没有什么特别的想法感受
每天就像凡人一样过活
新鲜与刺激似乎好象慢慢离我越来越远了
/.\

不知道有什么好blog了
糟糕
bye

被侵蚀的回忆

一笔一画 都是爱的证据 :)

今晚原本是我们五个人的聚会
凑了那么久可是都还是凑不齐
小马又病了 真的
对病菌的袭击似乎没有抵抗能力
早点调好身体吧 健康很重要

今晚我们吃泰国餐
不懂是不是我要发热气了
我觉得好辣 好可惜
我没有喝很多东炎汤

我们好象每天都在和时间进行拉距战
我和你的时间未必能对到
你和他的时间又未必能配合
几经辛苦凑到了
却又会有突发事件
一个小小的晚餐喝茶聚会
都好象变成个大难题
我们会不会败给时间 败给距离

两天的休息就这样用掉了一半
不知道 一想到星期一要上班
我就觉得好累
不想要打电话了啦
过去三个星期里
我打了至少1000+通电话了 =/

明天星期天要干吗好呢
没有意外的话
就是在家里花蝴蝶咯

今天是我的好好好朋友的生日
我承认离开了中学之后
我们是败给了距离
我们真的疏远了很多
可是 感觉心里还是一直记着彼此 =)
今天弄了一样东西给她
他会喜欢的我觉得啦 !! ^^*
生日快乐 -^^-

思念太猖狂 一个冷不防

好像有点迟
不过还是有心不怕迟
仪仪 生日快乐!! :)
一起哭一起笑一起承担秘密的日子 XD

3/4 在ntv7工作的日子眨眼就过去了
快到我都不懂我这三个星期里干过什么
可能我很贪心很心急
想要一开始就忙得不行
想要一开始就做些挑战性的东西
很可惜现在的我觉得我和之前实习的时候没什么两样
hump /___\
不过打工就是这样的啦
开过几次会议
我感觉到接下来的工作会有趣很多
那些忙碌真正投入工作的日子赶快到吧!!
这几个星期就当作是和同事们联络感情 XD

这个月我和dear都有一些小小的秘捞 ^^"
有些许令人振奋的额外收入 =P
希望这些秘捞陆续有来!!! XD
在做after effect photoshop的时候
我觉得我找到我自己的灵魂
我感觉得到我内在力量
实在令人振奋 ^^*

我是小超人

不好意素啦
那么久没有更新
因为恨懒惰 XD
我的生日已经过了啦
因为生日都提早庆祝了
所以我差点度过了一个很阴功的生日 呵呵
没关系没关系
在我生日快要结束的最后一个小时
我的结拜忽然出现在我家
给了我一个很大的惊喜 真的!!
哈哈 他还带了felix来
我正个人是傻眼加愣掉加尴尬加不知所措 哈哈
先说宝贝的
宝贝带我去法国村和日本村就在bukit tinggi那边
那里的地方很小就法国村的话就真的就一小条街家一座桥
真的不大 环境算是还可以啦
我是觉得有点冷清拉
可是很喜欢在那边用餐
因为有很外国人式的小band
就两个吉他手一个女歌手
就会在餐厅里唱民谣
你会忽然觉得生活其实没有那么烦躁
生活步调会变得轻松遐意
很舒服
离开了城市的烦躁
心脏的重量会忽然轻了许多
宝贝送我什么你懂吗
是相机 是DSLR!!
我是很想要可是我是计划了存到了钱再买
我没有想到他会送我的
大笨蛋!!!
我喜欢喜欢到爆~
我很开心不是因为他送我这么贵的礼物
是因为我感受到他的疼爱 哈哈!!

一生人当中能够有机会当上某一个人的公主
那是多么幸福可贵的事~

-^^-

然后呢我的一群朋友
哈哈 一群 XD
姐妹们和“兄弟们”
在garden cafe 帮我庆祝
那边的环境是很美拉
可是食物贵到~小分到~~~
他们送我oxy aqua!!
我第一次收到这么实际的礼物 XD
哈哈~ 可是真的很实际
我当天就需要到这份礼物了
XDXD!!!

22岁生日圆满结束啦

*************************************************************************************

话说我已经开始工作一个星期啦
没什么 第一个星期就只是一直打电话咯
打电话给600所学校
重点是那些校长都很难找
我要重打很多次
唉
还好明天开始暂时不用再当电话小姐了
我有新的任务了 终于~
他们都一直叫我小超人
我很喜欢这个名字
我是小超人:P

短发

she is so so so so cute right
一直皱眉的 很有霸气 很喜欢她 :D

今天去了秀洋的婚礼
第一次去下午的喜酒也
感觉很特别
然后呢
我第一次包红包
哈哈!!!
我长大了我觉得 呵呵呵呵
呆在家一段日子了
忽然可以打扮漂漂亮亮出门
我今天一整天心情都很好 :)

dear给了我他的硬碟
欠了超多的照片债
从一月份的到现在 /.\
很多照片在等着我整理上载
可是看回那些照片
很多很多回忆涌上来
会一直看一直笑的
看着我以前的长发
很懊恼
我怎么舍得剪掉的当时
我好想要回我的长发真的 :(

明天要跟亲爱的cloud cloud庆祝生日拉:)
hapi burfdae -^^-

温暖的一餐

鸿伟又从柔佛上来kl了
这次终于是的空了
所以一起吃晚餐
有jason, dominic, hongwei, kai yong n dear
我其实好久好久没看到他们了
尤其是jason
俗语说 是没有一辈子的敌人的 =)*
我们又回到以前热热闹闹的日子了
其实虽然只是一餐饭
可是很温暖的 ^^*
然后陪jason回ntv7找老板拿手机
一个星期半之后
我也会回到那地方
开始我另一份工作了

今天又回去公司第3次争取薪水了
原本以为dato会比较通情达理比较能谈
结果却出乎我们意料
原来它们都一直以为我们所有人一起离开
是一个预谋是一个计划
他今天说的话真的把它在我心里的形象给毁了
虽然我算不上很喜欢这位老板
对他管理公司的方式步态认同
可是至少我觉得他是个有智慧有口才的绅士
可是今天在他说出那番话之后
这个印象彻底的会了
他说以后再听到我们的名字
不会再多说什么
只会吐一口口水
他说
我们只是别人的一部棋子
老实讲
听到这番话
我是很吓倒
可是没有对我造成什么影响拉
只是很失望咯
当公司一而再再而三的出现类似的问题
管理层不是应该检讨找出问题的根本吗
而不是在这里疑三疑四的
他这样的态度
只会让我更加觉得我离开是明智的选择
祝福他们吧~*
最后的重点是
我还是没有争取到我们应得的数目
好伤心 这一个多月来
我和cwai每天上班的推动力
就是那个薪水
唉 就当买一次教训咯 /.\

刚宝贝载我回家时
忽然停下来
然后眼定定这样看着我
我知道他在想什么
=)*

我们曾天真的一起哭和笑

supposingly there is a yumcha+mahjong session tonite
but the moment im finding my car key
then only i realise my mom have drove my car
no transport then we cancel the session
the time when we are still working
we are craving for entertainment like sing k, movie session
but after i left the company till now
i not yet went for any entertainment session ==
hump..
tat day company called us back to take our cheque
but unfortunately
what i m worrying happened
they really did not give us the right amount..
rm2400 become rm1700....><
we straight away talk to the chairman and the ceo
ceo promised us next week
we hope they do take their promise
hello....
what is the date now...
already 16th october...
/.\
dissapointed max...

will start my next job on 1st of nov
back to ntv7
after 兜兜转转 still back to the same company
im fed up with those life that are full of uncertainty
it drove me crazy

刚刚翻看回之前的album
看到cloud的生日，我的生日，仪的生日，kuantan旅行，等等
一边看一边笑
全部回忆涌回出来
那感觉是温暖的

*而我知道 我们曾天真的一起哭和笑*

别人笑我太疯癫

铐上手铐 其实还能走多远
现在的我感觉我走的每一步
都像是拖着千百斤重的石头一样
需要费上很大的力气
很大的勇气
我好像在对抗
好像在挣扎着
每一步都好累
不知道这样还能走多远
其实每当我认真想回去
我才会揭开我在自欺欺人的可悲
爱装着潇洒 洒脱
其实我比谁都可悲
有人说我爱逞强
他其实是最看透我的那个
因为别人不懂
所以我不可以一直在角落里哭泣
然后让别人开始觉得我很烦
觉得我很懦弱
我只是没有办法面对
所以我就只好一直逃避了
我知道我没有办法改变什么
那就这样吧


*别人笑我太疯癫
我笑他人看不见*

递信

终于递上辞职信了
反反复复也不知道改变了多少次决定
这一次 心已经死了
下星期一就是最后一天了
还没交信之前还在想会遇到什么状况
结果出奇的平静 呵呵
也好 大家好来好去
未来又是一个未知数了/.\
信交上去了之后
我的心反而轻松了踏实了
呵呵
真想说 雾里看花 又怎么会看得清楚花的细节呢
可是我想他们很难会明白这个道理的

上个月花了好多钱在科技东西
买了爱疯，external hard disc, mouse...
我觉得我的磁场和电子科技的磁场开始靠近了
不是好事来的 /.\
我竟然很开心逛科技产品楼
好像买相机 :(

好想快快拿到这个月的粮^^-
想要快快再填补我银行里的洞
哈哈

大雨冲走了昨天

站在十字路口上
真的很迷惘
我希望我的选择是对的
至少我不是孤军作战
在这段时间以内
我一定要卯足全力
努力增值我自己
不想再去想应不应该的问题了
决定了就去吧 :)
要真正开始长大啦
不能再像小孩子
这个又想要那个又想要
挫败后又回到妈妈怀里哭
要扛起自己的责任
接下来的日子不是为公司
是为我自己
社会是很现实的
每一个人都可能带面具的
自己保护自己
自己保障自己
才是上策

今天宝贝说
我们都还是小孩子
很容易被大人的糖果骗走的
他说的很可爱*

我开始相信开始明白
一种米养百种人的道理
在这两个月的时间
我看过了一些我从前未遇见过的人
也看见了某些人的真实样子
觉得心寒觉得不可思议
大家都说我太天真了
防人虽然很累
可是我明白你要在社会生存
这是本能的求生技巧
哈哈
放心我并不是觉得人生很悲
只是我要开始保护自己
不然宝贝每天都害怕我会吃亏的感觉
哈哈 -^^"-

I want a different way

after waiting for so long, i got my IPHONE finally :D
i can't explain how excited i am now
tsk tsk tsk..
can u imagine i am so nervous while on the way to jy shi house
i have no idea why i feel so nervous!!!
i got an IPHONE for dear also
he knew nothing before i passed the phone to him
hahaha
he still thinking to buy an ipod touch
the moment i gave the phone to him
he was stunned
XDXD
i like the way he react:D
mission complete!! ^^*
still on the way adopting to touch screen phone
keep typing wrong msg..hehe :D
im sooo adicted to iphone touch screen awesome!!! :P

im going to quit my job
should be next month
i can't stay at the company anymore
it was so lifeless here
the mood always turns down when talk about future and job*
heavy topic =/

switch topic*
last saturday went to golden awards
ntg special
it was a kinda boring event i would say
kkk..tho i should support NTV7 ^^"
oh yea
we went for the movie 精武风云-陈真 before the event
totally disappointed ><
the screeplay was so ordinary
there were a few of "BATMAN" shot in the movie
freaking funny XDXD!!!
the way they present the screenplay doesn't bring out any impact
IP Man was much much more better than Chen Zhen
but still so obssesed with Donnie yen XD

then sunday finally we had our little gang gathering
5 of us
we will be gather once in each month
and 5 of us take turn to pay the bill^^*
iam the first
we had our dinner at 好好 steamboat
feel so good when we are together agan*
i miss the moment we spent together at uni time =(
i noticed that there are some slightly changes on horse
i cant describe the feeling
she become more quiet and like xin shi chong chong
hope she will be ok*

life is always so miserable
what can we do =/

只有你明白我有多珍贵

今天忽然收到我之前ntv7的制作人的短信
他问我要工作吗
我还以为我那么就没答复他
他应该忘记了吧
看到短信的那一霎那
真的心动了
说真的
我真的很怀念在ntv7工作的时候
那里的环境
工作制度
人情味
跟这里真的没得比
很想念我当时的同事们=）
他们还是叫我小超人的^^

说真的
我对现在的公司真的很失望
管理制度上真的很糟糕
每天上班最担心的就是今天又要熬夜吗
上班一个多月了快两个月了
没有超过5天时准时下班的
在这里上班真的见识了巢多东西的
一言难尽
只是这里好的地方是
我得到的机会多
我可以参与的东西多
我可以去主持
我可以去录音
我可以去参与节目策划
我可以去建制
我可以去制作
我可以去写稿
对我们这行而言
机会就是很重要的关键
这也是我为什么会继续留在这里的原因
我希望他们是说到做到*

准备了秘密礼物要给宝贝 -^^-
迫不及待很想要马上看见他收到礼物时
脸上的笑容 =）
对了我要去买几经给他了
他近来工作肯定累坏了 ><*
要忙节目又要参与电影
宝贝现在在距离我200公里以外的地方
=)

Wedding Planner

忽然间很有冲动我想要转行
我想要进结婚行业
每次在fb里看到大家post上去的结婚短片
就会很开心很开心
我觉得在这行工作的人
每天都会很开心
我喜欢那种甜蜜的感觉
仿佛世界都是快乐的
一生人一辈子的大事件
真的很快乐~*
为他们制作美美的短片
为他们安排精心炮制的婚礼
为他们准备贴心有意义的小礼物
一切一切的东西都是那么美好的
一份充满正面力量的工作
可以把每个女生憧憬的婚礼一个一个为他们实现
=)*

wedding planner*=D

赖着不放掉

已经一个星期没写blog了
其实有人还有继续来看的吗
如果有的话
可以留个言让我开心下也好吗
kkk

这个星期做了一件突破自我的事情
星期三那天
我们在公司做通宵
从星期二早上十点到第二天12点才放工
真的很累没有开玩笑
好像回到以前在大学赶工的时候
可是感觉不一样
这一次都是公司主管安排不妥当
他们不懂得管理的
我真的第一次很想骂粗口
><
他X的~~!!!!!!
我们决定星期一要跟上司谈了
再这样下去也不是办法
请不要滥用我们的责任感*

最近我本人很夯这首歌
田馥籈 寂寞寂寞就好
不懂为什么看她的mv我就会很专注看着他
我想如果我是男生
我也会很喜欢她吧*
每一个人都会有某一些特质吸引某一些人的*
说不出的感觉
大概就是这样的意思吧*

当见面越来越少时
思念就会疯狂的增加
应该就是在讲着我这样的情况吧
以前上学时
天天都回见到面
根本不会想过见不到面时会怎么样
当见面变成是一种奢侈的念头时
你才会知道那是多么珍贵的
呵呵*
可是我明白
要工作要累计经验
所以你要加油加油哦~*
每天都让我至少一定要听到你的声音就好好不好^^*

一切都在不对的时间点 =/

i'm sicked
sore throat+flu
shouldn't be sick at this period
my company is rushing for a dengue campaign in these two weeks
suddenly i became the host for the awareness video
had recorded the first episode
it was like a shit
表情僵硬
肢体语言不够
讲话速度是快时慢
3 more episode to go
i hope i can do it better
not hope it is a must~
stress tho :(

just back from kedah
visited my grandma
she was really old dy..=(
hump..
just went there for 2 days
rushing there and rushing back
no good rest as well
body still very weak and tired
sick summore
lack of energy dy..=/

later still have to write script
lazy to work during holidays

loo and jie bai were back at kl again
miss them so muchh
hope to meet up with them soon
hopefully tmr
if not the following week i won't have any free time dy
T.T

why is the campaign falls on hari raya
can't even enjoy the holiday
sucks la.../.\

我的未来不是梦

很想打部落格
今天请了半天假期
因为肚子又很不争气的来和我抗议我这个月喝太多冷水了
我已经从星期一开始
实行健康经济政策
平常时要带白开水去吃东西
必要时才叫水
不叫冷的 呵呵

今天公司很多新人加入
公司很热闹
老板召开了一个不算正式的会议
要让大家互相了解了解
一开始是新人一个一个出去自我介绍
谁知道结果全体员工都逃不过
哈哈
我很快速的说了我的梦想
我要当电视节目的制作人/导演
我要拍属于我自己的节目
我要拍真实不做作的节目
我要拍有故事有感动的节目
我知道我现在离那个目标还很远
可是我相信我有这个能力的
就算没有我也会让我自己变成有那样的能力
我觉得有梦才有人生 =）

我最近的生活好像都和cwai息息相关
幸好我们的想法很相似
很容易达到共识
有人可以互相诉苦讲是非
XDXD

我很想念我的小乌龟先生
每天睡前一定要听了他的声音才能安心去睡
-^^-*

am tired.

am tired.
both my body and soul
shouldn't feel like that
but sadly it is the fact
everyday when i step into the office
i wouldn't know what am i gonna to do for that day
everyday like got special 'surprise'
don't like the feeling
don't like to rush everything at the last minute
things aren't be perfect when u rush for it
=(

thinking to get some part time job on sat n sun
hope to earn as much as i could when i'm still young
i hope to have my own business in the future
gotta save some model first
planning planning =)
my mom ask me to do public mutual agent
shall i just give it a try??
but i don't hope tat my fren will avoid to answer my call anymore..lol

i'm looking forward to get my name card ^^!!

3 years anniversary

yesterday was our 3 years anniversary <3
never ever think that we can walk till this long
i still love u care u more and more everyday
i know u are the same to me =)
im must say that I am lucky to have you ^^*

当我们一起戴上四方帽

now we talk about my convo..!!!!=)
can't stop smiling everytime when i think about it haha
my mom was su funny
when we reach at wisma there
my mom saw everybody are holding flowers
she said"why evryone holding flowers..ai ling..y u din buy flowers...?"
huh?XDXDXDXD
hahaha..
but at last she bought me a bouquet of flower also =)
hmm..
ntg much to mention about the ceremony.
it was very bored..
the most excited part is the photo taking session after the ceremony..
wah wah wah...
dear's mummy bought a bouquet of flower for me also
so surprising
then bluespark called me
another shocking surprise
then my dearly qing and burger came with FLOWERS also!!!=)
my hand was tired because of holding three big bouquet of flowerss
my mouth was tires because of non stop smiling
i just cant stop smiling..XDXD lol
keep photo-ing...NON-STOP!!!XD
and it was really hot with three layers of clothes inside..T.T

after that we went for dinner at saisaki japanese buffet
i ate very little only tat night
so sayang..hump...=/
and everyone of us seems exhausted dy during dinner time
haha..
convo is really a tiring activity..XD

wonderful day...=)
but a little bit 遗憾
the situation there is really 混乱
i miss out the chance to took picture with many frenss..><

古城之旅

last saturday we went to melaka
finally the trip was on
it had been delayed for more than 2 months dy..lol
we went for the very symbolic churh to took picture
I was actually very interested to have a trishaw ride
im so excited to see those trishaw
then i automatically took out my camera wanted to take a snap on one of the trishaw
then the 'driver' of the trishaw
pointing at me...!!!and scold me stupid...!!!!
walaoehhh....wad a GOOD service attitude...
how could they behave like this to the tourist...
local tourist also tourist marrr...><
after tat we went to have hainan chicken rice ball
queue-ing for about 20 mins
hmm..just okok lo...
i prefer yim guk kai more..XD
next we took a river cruise...
suckss maxx~~
ntg to see at all...
10 bucks..wasted...
and at the time we are on the boat
we got a saman for illegal parking...
really very suehhhh T.T
next, we head to taman buaya
rm8..actually it was really not worth for it..
those buaya there are all like stone..==
just sleeping and stoning there...
no movement..no action at all..
but like i said
we always can be syioksendirinesss..lol
we try everything to bully those buaya..lol
we throw stone on them
we kicked the door of their kolam
we splash water on them...XDXD
but at least we saw some real action..
cool..really fun..^^
night we had our dinner at kapitol satay celup..
err..we queue up for more than 1 hour...
but everyone of us dun really enjoy the meal..
and it is really expensive..not worth..
the last stop is at jonker street..
it was really very crowded and riuh-rendah..lol
but ntg to buy there..so disappointed..><
overall i enjoyed the trip
i enjoyed the single moment that i spent with my lovely frenss =)

像是刺猬般防范

今天有个同事和我聊起天
他说我的防范心很强
我的面前总是有一座很高很稳的城堡
没有办法让人靠近
他说我爱装很坚强
其实自己内心脆弱得很
我自己却不知道
他说我不容易相信人
每当别人要靠近我时
或者说我什么时
我会先反驳先自卫
我会像刺猬一样簌起我的刺
不让人靠近
我听到这番话时
我其实是有点震惊
我从没想过我会给人这样的感觉
更没想过我会是这一类的人
我觉得这番话很有趣
打翻了以往我听见别人对我的看法
我喜欢听别人如何剖析我这个人
或许这样我会更了解我自己多一点
每个人都以为很了解自己
往往却会忽略掉很多自己不曾发现的自己

浮生乱世

我已经上班超过一个星期啦
我其实进了一间很乱水的公司
真的是乱倒我觉得不可思议
我进的这段时间刚好是公司的动荡时期
上层不满下层下层不满上层
我们这些新来的就夹在中间
其实我真的要得很简单
并不想加入这些纠纷
只希望做好本分学到东西得到应该得到的回报就好了
其实出来社会工作就是讲态度这两个字
不管是上层也好下层也好
都有自己应该有的态度
详细情形很懒惰多说
我才工作了一个星期
我就过了试用期
而且还升职了
我现在是策划统筹
有些人会讲是公司的手段要快快留住我们
可是换一个角度想
其实我们自己也有好处的不是
早一点过试用期
工钱就拿多一点
职位高一点
以后就可以建立自己的profile
他们或许有他们的心机
可是同样的我们也没有吃亏不是吗
如果公司真的想他们难说得那样
这样到我真的撑不住时
我还是会离开的
就当给自己一个机会学习咯
事情是要看双面的
吃的咸鱼抵得渴
就算是吃了点亏
就当作是经一事长一智

从不喜欢孤单一个

为什么我那么丑怪的 :(
我们昨晚度过了一个很愉快很开心的晚上
我们先去吃晚餐 在taipei walker
这一餐我们讲话多过吃饭
好像几十百年没有讲过话酱
总是有说不完的话题
分享不完的心事似的
nice talk :)
我觉得当大家开始离开校园生活
各自步入社会的同时
这样难得相处谈心的机会变得很少
我会特别珍惜的 <3
总之说了很多聊了很多
感觉真好



接着去的那一场演唱会
我们都很兴奋
因为我们拿的是rogal gold的票
很前很前 舞台就在我们的前面
每一次当他们望着我们这个方向
我一直觉得他们是看到我们的
而且我手上有荧光棒
是这一区仅仅少有的其中一只荧光棒
我一直跟仪说他在看我 XD



其实整场演唱会
我根本不知道我会的歌曲有没有超过10首
我会的就大概只有
男人不该让女人流泪
你爱我想谁
七友
...
可是实力派就是实力派
他们个个都很会唱针的
我个人特别喜欢许志安的表演
他的舞蹈秀算很精彩的
而且状态体型全部还很fit
而且我觉得他很疯
<3
一开始我以为我会很闷的
一直提不起劲去high
谁知道其实我还蛮enjoy的说
XD
全场唯一的不足是
我憋了整场的尿
我从开场憋到回家
T.T
因为我们坐的位子是最里面的一排
很困难走出去
只好忍住咯
>.<

休息了两天
明天又继续上班啦
老实说
我还没习惯这样的生活
:(

take a breath

this is my seat in my office*
my seat is just next to the boss's room
im not dare to on facebook or msn now
haha..><
today was my first day in work
basically i did ntg much today
just some script writing
deal with the host and helping in VO part
then my boss told me about what shuld i do
there are many small small details things to remember and do
frankly speaking
i am still very blur about the system here
not familiar with their programme
but just try my best to catch up as much as possible

today agnes and cwai supposingly is come for interview
at last they leave the office same time with me
haha..i will have another two more new colleagues hehe
i am happy to see them here tho :)

just now went pasar mlm with them
kang, cwai, yee, agnes
we ate at steven corner
we witness an incident
it was so happening
a fight/quarrel happened
an uncle was beaten on his face
half of his face was swelling and nose bleeding
two young man i guess are his sons were shouting and pushing off the table and chairs in steven corner
we are not sure whether the quarrel related with steven corner
but it was quite scary because the two man was like lost control at first
act very aggressive
it looks like he will enter the shop and start a hard fight anytime
after a while the police came
they are still arguing
but at last we still dunno wad happened
young ppl
why are they so 冲动
><

hump really tired dy..><
it was only just 10:30pm now
ishhhh
i need a rest dy :(

actually im not in a good mood*

天灰灰 累不累

this picture were took last year loo's birthday celebration in Fullhouse.
cute right? they were holding each other :) sweet <3

today i really did smtg that i have thinking for such a long time
i guess not much ppl did it before
i sing alone in redbox for almost three hours today
i won't say it was truly fun
but it was really an interesting experience
the customer after was also singing alone
haha so i feel more comfortable while register in the counter
sang more than 50 songs i guess..
at least 40 la..:P
i just keep dedicate the song that i want
when i want to stop just stop it
when i want to repeat just repeat
but it was tiring tho
non stop singing..wow...
at least try once in your life..:)

其实现在的心情很沉重 真的
不知道哪里来的重量
一直压着我的心
压迫感很重
明天要上班了
我一直觉得我爸爸妈妈都好像不是很喜欢我的工作
我妈妈还在问我要不要再去拿另一个科目的学位
你知道吗
因为要做的比别人都好
要做出成绩给他们看
所以我比别人都来得压力
我要证明我的选择是对的
我要相信我走的路一定也有很好的未来的
只是，这个起点我走得很辛苦。

蜜月去啦

其实摄影真的很好玩，不管是当摄影者或者被摄影者都有不同的乐趣。
照片会说故事，真的。
等吧，等我开始储蓄足够钱后，我会买相机的。
我喜欢人物摄影比较多。
我觉得很特别的，照片会让你对某一个人有不一样的看法 :)

明天要开始上班啦
honeymoon结束啦
早上不能睡到自然醒
不能赖床啦 :)
我其实不知不觉honeymoon了40天了
哇哇哇~
我其实很害怕我明天开始会不能适应要工作一整天的生活
我习惯了每天要睡午觉
习惯了早上接近11点才起身的
习惯了没事做就懒懒的躺在沙发上看电视
习惯了糜烂的生活
希望我的工作是很繁忙
很有挑战性的啦
忙碌才能替我填补对颓废的依赖。
我开始在想
我每天上班要穿什么衣服好呢
想这种的 哈哈
我会觉得穿着自己喜欢的衣服
心情也会好一点
工作也会有劲一点

对了
昨天去一个演员试镜
其实很懒惰去了的
都是一个auntie很努力很积极的大电话给我
那就应酬应酬咯
到那边
上着楼梯时
竟然有人叫我的名字
我猛回头一看
竟然看见susan
世界好小哦
原来是他工作的公司来的
遇到朋友真的开心的说
然后呢
这次我的试镜的角色
竟然又是要发娇的
上次是妓女的角色
这次是一个勾引男人的“小妖精”
然后我要跟cwai对戏
救命 我没有办法看着他要发娇
一直很想笑场
可是整个过程很好玩啦真的
有为我原本郁闷的心情变得阔朗一点*

现在要出去了
回来再说*

因梦想而伟大

我不再需要量地了
其实老板今天和我握手的那一刻
我不知道我是开心还是什么心情
很奇怪的人 都是这样的
没有的时候会很烦很想要
机会在面前时又会诸多忧虑

我眼前的那家公司
规模不算大
也没有大制作之类的
是一家新的网络中文媒体
其实我是听到他说他要我做Voice over
所以我才被这份共吸引了
除了要录音
也要改稿写稿
还有负责监督所有的制作都要在date line之前完成
老实说工作性质真的很适合很吸引我
而且工作时间我也很满意 哈哈
我不知道 很想快快去掉脑力海里那一股不知哪来的顾虑
去去去去!!!

我承认
我不是没有工作
只是我在挑
总觉得似乎有更好的机会在前头
塞翁失马 焉知非福
这句话用在这样的状况不知道适合吗
简单来说
就不想到时候如果遇到更好的际遇会让自己后悔
不知道这样的想法是错的吗

我有，我的脑袋里有一大堆的梦想
我不要当个无名人士打一辈子的工
我要爬更高
我要由我自己的事业
我不需要当某某大集团的老板
也不需要当月入万元的有钱人
至少我在和别人介绍我自己时
我可以很大声地说
某某某东西就是我的杰作 :)
我妈妈可以很光荣的和他的朋友说
你看这就是我女儿做的 :)
之类的
所以我要加油 我知道的

最近宝贝越来越迟回家了
我很多时候等他的电话都是在睡梦中进行的
他的公司我只能说 不忍不义
哈哈 人工给那么少 却要手下做的要生要死
可是我相信宝贝有正确的工作态度
有很强的上进心
他一定会成功滴!!^^*
而且我的宝贝不差的嘛~^^

God pls decide everything for me

just back from en en house warming
made a jelly cake for her
it was not a really successful cake
but luckily enen and her mummy very like it :)
her new house was not much different from the previous one
same tidy same design same style same feel :)
was tired..badly tired..><
in the evening went to UCSI
it was qing's convocation
we gave her a surprise
me + burger + cloud + cloud's sista
she was charming today with the 毕业袍 + 四方帽
i enjoy the convo feel actually :)
it make me feels warm
i dunno why just feel warm
i keep imagine how it would be for my convo
not very long to go dy
just next month
qing got a few bouquet of flower
mainly from her family and burger also
i like those flower alot!!~
will i get one on my convo as well?
looking forward to tat day ^^!!*

hump~
actually dun feel really happy now
hump..
i miss a job opportunity becoz of my 婆婆妈妈 不果断的个性
just a few days time
they hired ppl dy
hump
so these two months how??
continue to 量地官??!!><
aiksssss
i shuld decide earlier
however it is too late to say anything now
T.T

beautytalk offer the job to s'pore again
shuld or shuld not go??
@.@

i don't like to make decision sometimes!!!><

p/s: finally my car got alarm lock dy..and my radio is beck...no more silent in car!!hooray~!!*

材米油盐酱醋茶

aiksss..seriously i miss my long hair a lot!!!!~
hmm..i want my long hair back...
how long i have to wait~T.T
2 years??!! /__\

today accompany agnes to piramid
we had a nice talk and nice shopping
a heart talk probably :)
i saw a stitches errr针织 jacket~
i love it soooo much
there are ribbons and cute girl pattern on it
sweet to max~!!
but is cost rm65~
at last i din bought it~
but now i "sam lo lo luen"
hump...T.T

then just now dinner at taipei walker
i like it soo much OMG~
can't control myself from the taiwanese food~~
i had 沙茶羊肉 ~*
passion fruit red tea & bubble milk tea~
my dear dun let me to drink bubble milk tea
he said it is not healthy worrr
but i just can't stop loving it~!!
i also so so so in love with 士林 oyster mee sua
the time when i work in tropicana
i had oyster meesua continuosly for the two days
siao dy...XDXDXD*

then yesterday
we went to uni to pay the convo bill
then later had lunch together and movie together also
we watched INCEPTION
it was very interesting~!!
interesting synopsis
highly reccomended~!
then at night we went to cannaught pasar malam also
enjoy the walk too^^*i feel like we just like back to the time when we are at year 1 sem 1
:)
i really appreciate the moment we spent together now
there is not many chances that we could all gather together anymore
its hard to date everyone as each of us has work to do dy
so..when is our next meet? ^^*

enjoyed these two days
wonderful days~*

I am not simple!!XD

just end of my two days work in tropicana city mall Sasa
physically tired but mentally not
this time i am able to work in a more relax way
haha..i think i am successfully imune from all those negative words from those girlss
I am able to 置之不理 towards what they said
haha..its hard u know..
a girl said me that I am very 心机重
because I work very hard to hit any sales
u know why
our supervisor got give stress
and then yet they actually did pay us high salary
i will always think that I shuld be responsible to do my job and shuldn't let them down as they really be very kind to us
hmm..but everytimr i work very hard
then there will girl from sasa there said this say that @.@
the most funniest sentence that they said is "他这个人不简单“
hahahaha....i really feel =.=
my mind is just so simple --- i want to hit sale
that's all
then they say like me like dunno aim for what..
so funny la...
so what i can say is..
i really not suitable in this field...
haha...XDXD

everytime i work in sasa
i also got things that i want to buy
the place is a hell!!!XDXDXD
this time i need a lotion
the NATIO body lotion is really good all my dearSS!!!!!
no sticky at allll!!!!very smooth!!! like it!!!
:)

tomorrow no work
feel like want to watch a movie
i got so many movie on my pending list :(
ip man 叶问前传
despicable me
eclipse
...
..

:(


night world*
I am happy
dunno why
just feel happy :)

You are my baby

这篇是特地写给你的
我昨天一拍完戏后就看见你睡在车子里等我
那时候已经是2点凌晨了
你知道吗
我很心疼可是又觉得很窝心
你工作已经忙到连休息都不够了
却还要半夜三更出来接我回家
满满的感动在心里 :)
我要记录下这幸福的一刻*

我喜欢看见你为我忙碌的模样
喜欢听见你在百忙之中还要撒娇吵着要来找我的语气

快点快点
我要等你忙完了之后
要请你吃大餐 你说好不好 ? :)

things can't be perfect :(

just beck from an interview at DeTV
not yet accept the job
becoz of many reasons
the job scope sounds a bit dull for me
the pay is too little frankly speaking
yeap...very miserable now..
but i can see that there will be a bright future in this company
it is a big company
i will have chances to be 升职 or try diff depart.
I have good 福利...
aiksss..very 矛盾..
dunno how to make decision..
they asked when can i start work..
but i said i need time to consider first..
next week will be 2nd interview
I need to have a decision by then..
things can't be perfect in all ways right?
烦死了 :(

yesterday 2am only reached home
that kelefeh job was really tiring
keep waiting from 3pm till 130am
this is the worst kelefeh job that i'd met ever
act as nurse and 路人甲乙丙丁
but i realized one thing
i definitely dunwan work as PA for any drama production
i saw those PA work like hell
=="

Im wondering what kind of life that I aim for actually
@.@

That's me

never remember how many blogs that i've changed before
all being abandoned at last
Guess how long that this blog will be stay alive :D
was wondering whether shuld i use eng or mandrin for this blog
i chosen eng for this first post
really hope i could improve my eng in this way
can huh ? :)

this week came to the thrid week for my job searching period
I never expect that it was such a difficult task to find a job
mayb yea im too picky ? issit?
but who doesn't want a job which suits them and with high pay
actually not high pay la
mayb reasonable pay is enuf
reasonable means?
my fren said at least rm2000?
for me i guess at least rm1800
I got few choices of job actually
SASA girl? - this is really high pay dun kidding
Beauty product agent?
editor?
yea that's it
not really the cup of my tea
so just continue searching ba

Im stressed seriously
not becoz of myself
becoz my mum
she never really agree with the course that i took
in these 3 years
never remember how many times of quarrel occured between us abt this topic
she wants me to take a more professional course
such as dentist? pharmarcy? nutrition?
until now she still sticks with her own mind
not only this
there are many other issue that she always could not agree with my decision or choices
such as i love fishing
but she dunwan me to go fishing
i understand what she is worry about
but I have my own choice to do what i like isn't it?
hump
i had tried thousand times explaining to her
but at last ended in a bad situation
i never win the quarrel
so yea
my fren always said
things is just depend on me
whether am i going to fight for it
but they never know what condition that I am facing
so i always just keep silence
don't know how to explain to them
and don't know what to answer them

tomorrow going for a kelefeh shooting
im acting as a nurse
but they want me to act in a funny way
i read thru the script
they might want me to act as a 姣婆/花痴 i guess
im nervous seriously
im not sure whether i can act like that in front of camera
Oh goshh :D
but i can earn some extra money
that's the main point wohooo :)

p/s: why I couldn't design the template of the blog nicely :(