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长这么大 我第一次真正体验到圣诞节
今年我有一个很快乐的圣诞
取了一趟新加坡
看过了也体验过了大家一直说的很有圣诞气氛的新加坡
在orchard road是最难忘的
原本很冷静的我也没办法抗拒他们的 的疯狂
走在路上不管你是谁
大家都象朋友一样互相喷射白泡沫
每个人脸上都是挂着很开心的笑脸
欢呼声此起彼落
感觉真的很好很开心很热闹很happening




第二天去了Universal Studio
再次踏进这个乐园心情完全不一样
之前是工作 能看不能玩
这次感觉很棒哦
很喜欢那里
喜欢他们的设计
真的好想离开了城市
在一个乐园里走在纽约的街头
觉得好放松好放松
顿时会觉得肩膀轻了很多
真的

其实每次去新加坡
都会很有冲动想留在那边做工
我不知道离开家里到外面生活是怎样的感觉
可能会很想家吧
可能会很想朋友吧
可是还是很像去体验一下

这四天三夜的旅程
我真的很开心
因为每天都可以跟他腻在一起
有个人可以让你觉得跟他在一起会让你有100％的安全感
那就够了
平常工作累了压力大了
他就是我的避风港
就是那种就算天塌下来了
都会有他帮我顶住
只要有他在
我都不会怕的
谢谢你 :)

2011年就这样要结束了
很快 今年过的特别快
不舍得呢
不想那么快长大
可以吗

不管明天多坏 都别抛弃我

最近几天忙到连发呆的时间也没有
出门的时候天是黑的
回家的时候天也是黑的
好累好累
不知道是不是因为休息不够
所以我好像要生病了
今天在剪接室
剪接师也是不停咳嗽喝水
下一轮用这间剪接师的人很可怜
要抵抗一堆渺小却力量强大的病菌

可是忙归忙 累归累
我没有不开心没有埋怨
我是不是长大了 呵呵

上个周末经历了我人生第一个摄影棚拍摄
第一次就自己一个人上阵
我发觉我真的只是喜欢拍摄
不喜欢去研究相机
不喜欢去研究technical的东西
我这样真的可以当摄影师吗
[怀疑-ing]

我自己不是太满意那些照片啦
可是意外的是
有一个client临走前跟我要名片
然后说以后如果要来studio拍摄
可以指定我吗
我真的觉得[不可思议]到一个境界
原来被要名片的那种感觉真的很好
真的[他妈的]爽和兴奋
我那两天沉闷孤独和惊险的摄影棚之旅
就在这种[他妈的]爽的心情下结束了

我超累超累的
请容许我放肆的给他睡个够够力!
晚安 大家
我明天管它三七二十一的
我一定要自然醒

我和我最后的倔强 握紧双手绝对不放

手作品.我挂在嘴边说了很久却也只都是说说而已
终于开始动工了!!
真的真的很喜欢手作品
满足感大到我好像完成了一个一百公里马拉松一样
想要那个大声公公告全世界和所有人分享
有人感受到那种喜悦吗 :P
一百万美金都买不到的喜悦 -- [赞]
完成后我眼睛都快花了 XD



原本在最后一个步骤我缝错了
那种努力到最后
却临门失误的感觉
很不好哦
有闪过一丝想放弃算了就不做这个了的念头
可是最后还是乖乖的拆线再缝过 :D
所以才有现在那么愉悦的心情
有做了一件让自己觉得自己有那么一点点厉害的事
yahoooo!!!

这个周末周日都有工作哦
又拿相机去大冒险啦
拍照对我来讲
每一次都是一次打冒险
你不知道你会不会拍得到满意的照片
你不知道你会不会拍到意想不到的瞬间
你不知道拍到的照片会不会为照片的主角带来惊喜
很刺激也会有很大的满足感 [或失败感啦 =X ]
明天后天是拍studio shoot
是我人生第一次
真的是大大大冒险
紧张*
可是我相信我可以handle到啦
我的自信心开始回来找回我做好朋友了
[欢迎回来] ^^

也就是说我这两个星期都不会有休息天了
会累也真的
可是我累得很开心很享受

下雨天加上睏睏的眼睛
应该就是一倒下就抱头大睡到天亮的啦
[晚安]

快乐是自找的

又是收礼物的时候。
从曼谷坐飞机回来的守信哦^^
不要羡慕
因为我有一个很好很好好很疼很疼我的朋友
她叫[马慧心] :D
收到礼物代表有人疼你
那种宇宙无敌开心到不能形容的心情
[我很享受] =P

我想我这辈子最要感谢我爸爸妈妈
在生我之前
他们一定很认真地和上帝祈求
要给予我[知足]的性格
吃一支冰淇淋
可以开心得像考试得一百分一样
放工回家路上
一路上都是青灯的话
我会觉得今天是好天
送小礼物给朋友
朋友脸上的笑容
也可以让我开心好久
可能你觉得我小题大作
很小孩子
但是也就是因为我常放大这些小事
所以我很容易快乐

怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风

[想一想 可能很多东西其实你已经拥有了
只是你没发觉而已]

最近心情好好噢
也很想传染给我身边的朋友
什么事都很顺利
还有很多值得冒险的事等着我去做
太棒了
可不可以就一直这样下去啊?

我在生活

[忙] 很忙 非常忙
绝对很适合来形容我最近的生活
这几个星期
才真正开始觉得[我在生活]。

昨天在外头流离浪荡了一整天
跟木木的bf去逛街逛书展
跟弟弟妈妈去吃丰盛的晚餐
晚上跟好久不见的小学同学和老师聚会
回到家时已经是午夜时分了
充实的生活着其实感觉很好。

忙什么
忙剪接
忙摄影
忙手作
忙思考
忙构思
忙想办法让自己每天都过得开心
这是最忙的了。

[忙开心最重要]

最近要做一件很重要的决定
很大的决定
也很可能改变我以后的决定
哈哈
现代的年轻人都有做决定或选择恐惧症是吗
我可以很大声说
走在路上
你问十个年轻人
[你知道你以后要做什么吗]
八个会答不到你
没有关系 就摸索啊
我也在摸索着
总有一天我会找到我厉害的地方

正面能量[凝聚着]。

九把刀说

最近九把刀非常夯。
因为他 让我很想有些部落格的冲动
所以就找回了这个被抛弃很久的地方

这几个月以来
我觉得我自己长大了
经历了一些事
一些以为自己差点就这样崩溃挂掉
差点还想说去见心理医生的[难关]
那个一直以来很开朗很乐观的我忽然间不见掉了
真的有让我慌张了一下

九把刀说
他要成为很厉害的一个人
这样的梦想听起来很哗众取宠
一定会让人嗤之以鼻的梦想
却很深很深的烙印在我脑海里
[厉害]这个字的定义因人而异
不一定要成为百万富翁
不一定要拯救地球
不一定要改变世界什么
只要能让自己和身边的人因为你做的事
而觉得有那么一点点骄傲或幸福
你已经是很厉害的人了
而我现在正朝着这样正面能量的方向迈进

最近很多人一直来跟我说
[你拍的照片很美啊]
这就是其中一个让我觉得我自己很厉害的地方
像九把刀一样
要有一点点像他一样的臭屁和不知道那里来的自信
你才会有魅力

要有正面思考你才能在这社会上活下来
懂得这个道理 所以我说我这几个月成长了不少 ^^

sunshine is there!

sudd feel like blogging
that's why i clicked into this being-neglected blog again

doing pretty good recently
my life was flooded by work ONLY for the past few weeks
guess had only two off days for the whole month
tired but at least i felt that I'm really working
I'm not taking the pay for nothing
the programme will be end soon
im now starts my job hunting again
sien max T.T
hate job hunting
when ppl asking me what is my next plan
i have no idea at all
frankly say that
i dunno what i want
i had a lot of diff interest
i dunno what is my main interest
photography/post production/design/production
i think of the future life
the reality the money the hapiness the satisfaction the parent's expectation
how to get a job that can satisfy all the needs

met my sistasss just now in midvalley
had our dinner at the taiwan restaurant "feng lai"
then had our dessert at hagen-daz (dunno how to spell =.=)
all of them are doing pretty good now
:D
good good!
conclusion -- a happy nite!

i got three off days!!
yeah yeah!! :D
movie?^^
sing k?
date with my dear ^^*

Don't you miss me toooooooo? -^^-

失落沙洲

最近都一直活在恐慌当中
一直在重复提醒自己
是不是又忘了准备些什么
是不是又带漏了什么
是不是又忘记了些什么任务

不知道自己怎么了
零自信的日子
要怎么过啊

今天很emo
emo的时候找不到人谈天
就像在大海中央看不见任何的岸边
一样失落和迷失方向

等不到天黑 烟火不会太完美

I am definitely not a blogger
写部落格这种事情是要看心情是很偶然的东西
我没有办法像那些部落客一样定时定期更新
我的情绪心情感受来得快去得也快
总是来不及在当下记录我的心情点滴
其实是很遗憾的
文字根照片一样
都是回忆的守护者

我这两天都睡不好
上班时都是行尸走肉般的
我觉得我快要失去我对生命的激情与憧憬了
已经很久没有真正很high很投入一件事情一个活动
每一件事每一个活动每一个incident
都是发生了过了就算
好像没有什么事情值得大惊小怪
没有什么事情值得记录下来
没有什么事情可以让我百分百投入

mid-year crisis
我的朋友提过这样的term
大概就是我现在这样的状况
刚毕业出来的年轻人
心中一大堆的憧憬
却看不见未来的路
好像这样也不对
那样也不适合自己
为什么我总是不如其他人
担忧怀疑沮丧
不知所措的觉得自己会不会就这样混混谔谔的过了一生
说真的 挺难受的




你明白我说什么吗?

晴天 雨天 天天都是好天

craving for so long
finally watched this movie
i like the caption of the movie actually
晴天 雨天 天天都是好天
i like the song of the movie 彩虹的家
frankly speaking
i did put some hight expectation on this movie
as those DeeJayss had over over over rated the movie
i was like "herrr.." waiting for the so call so so so touching part of the movie
at the end i din even had a drop of tears
and sorry to say that
it was a really boring movie for me
i din really enjoy any part of the movie
story line were too shallow
nothing deep that touched my feeling
the person beside me keep laughing
zzz he so hope the movie can end faster
haha so bad him
hmmm well disappointed :(
sorry no offend to those who had put a lot of effort in this movie
just tat it can't touched me at all

thinking about future again recently
yaya this topic never end
its just like a circulation zzz
very "fan" to think on this
well
will tell u all when i have any decision!
for now
all i want to do the most is photoshoot!
wohooo!the spirit is here :D
go go go!

A.P.P.R.E.C.I.A.T.E

cute cute whales from samantha's car
:D

went to buy lens with jason n dear
haha..dear bought the 50mm f1.4 lens!!
awesome lens..like it <3
jason bought 50mm f1.8 nice tooo^^*
OMG! im already addicted to photography world
soooooooooooo in love with it :D

yesterday had my dinner with ah kooi
ahhhhhhhhh lovely and wonderful dinner for me
we talk from the north to the south
haha...talk about the history, talk about the present and also the future :)
we miss the junior 3 life badly
the year was the most memorable year for us
5 of us..we are so close to each other
me, ah kooi, enen, xiao ma and jy shi
we met a zong lao
we met jasmin ng
those letters
those phone chatss
every single things that we had passed thru is all my precious memory
i love u all... alot <3
altho we are no more that close to each other
but i still love u all deeply madly truly
appreciate -^^-

因为在乎所以才会吃醋 <3

p.s: someoner waiting for me to fong gong outside my office today :D

你的心有一道墙

went sing k today
finally!! phew~*
with horse n mr kuan
i can't recall back that when was the last time we took photo tgt
we really din hang out for a long period dy...
i felt that im easily emo recently :(
i dunno why
can somebody tell me?
the lucky woman is going to trip tmr again
yess!! again!!
going langkawi this time
while me n choon wai have to back to working life as usual /.\

chat a lot with choon wai recently
we talked about future, work, life....
many planss in list
build up a band "打鼓"
秘捞 shhhhh*
dancing
....
i wonder which one will be switched to "ON" mode soon
i need accompany to work out those plans tgt
that's why we need each other lol
well do i have enough courage, power, motivation to do all this?
that is the question
haha..i doubt it frankly speaking...
please push me!!someone!!

Chinese New Year is around the corner!!
yeahooo!! ang paoss = money!!
:D

something uncontroll-able

the girl is back to the city now =D
tremendously excited when i knew it
i have forgoted how long that she have been left us to the so so far away country
more than one year ++
meeting her soon!!
shall see whether she changed anything :P

as what i've said yesterday
i enjoyed my day today
i couldn't say it is a wonderful or exciting day
at least no more complaints
no more 抗拒 to work
no more sad mood
no more 垂死挣扎 mode
off all those negative mode :)

heavily raining during off work time today
unable to get to my car at all
date with cwai to have the delicous satay at first
but everything ruined by the heavily rain
super traffic jam
at last we spent our time in 士林
and had a yummy chocotop in McD after that
my all time favourite ice cream :)

actually feel good to have a little talk session with frens after work :)
yesterday nite dinner with qing n loo
no stress no boundries to talk and be with them
now i really feel stress during my work time
i have phobia
always keep reminding myself whether i had miss out anything
stress max and frightened myself a few times
silly me :/

我的心情很复杂
复杂到我不懂怎样去整理出来
un-control-able

tomorrow is saturday
but have to work :)

她说

Today I have a extrem mood
burst into tear in the morning
did a stupid mistake
then severe period pain in the evening
happy chit chat session with my jie mei'sss
dramatic day

loo always makes me feel envy of her dramatic and colourful life
frankly speaking i was really fed up with my life now
我甚至开始觉得抗拒第二天早晨的到来
i couldn't describe my life now
it was just like a shit.><
after hearing the story of her
i have another different thinking
why am i become someone that 怨天怨地
shouldn't be like that

早上比平常早一点点起身
找一件漂亮的衣服
把自己打扮一点点
上班的心情也会不一样
女人有时候就是要多疼疼自己
才会变得漂亮
漂亮的女生都是那些懂得宠爱自己的女生 不是吗? :)

stop stop stop!!
不要在颓废垂死挣扎下去了
planss are coming on the way
dancing class with my dearest sista-们
stress max
can't control my nerve
lol
XD

should have a good nite and tomorrow shall be a good day!! =D

犯错

我又犯了一个大错
我竟然把一件很重要的booking给忘了
我不知道我怎么了
我现在很自责很自责
yee他问我最近做么酱粗心
我真的没有心在工作这里了
很难过很难过很难过
:(

我知道我不能想一个小孩在那里埋怨这个那个
我的心去了哪里了
我的责任心
我的热诚不见了

我应该认真看待我现在的态度问题
/.\


自责可以改变什么

保持通话

this photo was taken when i was stucked in a heavy jam
ikssss..since the school starts and raining all the time
no more smooth traffic hates it alot /.\
简直在考验我的耐性 :(

ahhhhh.talk about work
i dun really enjoy the job scope now
i always dislike do merketing or sales thingy
but i think wad i m doing now is almost similiar with sales..
zzzz..phone call phone call everyday...
hopefully the task will be end sooo sooonnn
pray hard!!!
i hope to get some other more challenging task rather being a miss telephone!!==

hump...
feel that our sista gang had lost the bond of connection
none of us know the latest updates of each other
viewing each other status but absolutely have no idea wad is the story behind
when we can get reconnected AGAIN~/.\

spend alot recently..
haiz how to save money worrrrr :(

countdown-ing to the mr.JAY Chou concert
wohoooooooo!!! :D

a brand new year

hello everyone :)
this is the very first post for year 2011
no special party or event during countdown eve
but i did make new year resolution
i hope i can get more satisfaction in my job
i hope i can earn more more money
i hope dear can found the job that he really likes
i hope my family all in good condition
i hope all my friends will overcome all the circumstances in 2010
everything just be fine in 2011
i hope i can brush up my photography skill
last but not least
the most lame wishes but also the most realistic one
i hope no more natural disaster in 2011

i'm not greedy rite?
so pls make all the wishes come true
pleassshhhhhhh :P